untitled; december 2025

I think I miss ballet / my mother searches for cheap flights / I feel a panic attack coming on / it's been years / it’s been years / I feel a panic attack coming on / drag your foot behind you / fly to where you want / your friends are in paris / you fly home / butterfly / butterfly / I am trying to read my own body / I do not want to fly home / I do not want to fly home / I am trying to honor my body / how much of what I do not remember has not happened to this body / how much has not happened to this body that it remembers / I do not know if my father knows his grandma’s maiden name / I do / I have always known too much / I do not know what happened to this body that I do not remember / Adrienne Rich writes, “no one sleeps in this room without the dream of a common language.” / In “Churching,” Kristin Chang writes of god / I believe myself. / do you? / do you? / I am trying to honor this body / are you? / are you? / I feel a panic attack coming on / butterfly / I do not want to fly home

— Simone Basmaijan