Wishful Waking

Why do I lose myself in all of you, your
Sparkling eyes, desired demeanor, woke working mind, walking
To the new possibilities your presence presents.
Why does your body suddenly infill me with
Courage, calming waves of your wiseful tone.
Abilities to create, carry yourself, yearn in the most respectful way
Which I could never do. wishes of my elders in my ear
To pick up my feet and stop drooling, and dreaming of you.
Can you pretty please stop performing better then I could be,
That others want me to be, what I wish I could be.
Take me to the shore that I exaggerate in my shallow mind
Shit, where I wish I could always be, always.
Why would you make me realize that all this wishful thinking of wanting you,
Is wanting to shove my sinful self into your soft skin

— Aubrey Lassen